mardi, juillet 07, 2009
Humeur actuelle :
curieux
As much as I want to curl up into a ball and sleep for 18 hours a day,
I must not.
As much as I want to eat junk food and watch tv and cry, I can't!!!
I must not let seemingly impossible situations dictate my happiness or my life plan.
I hate to speak so vaguely, but I fear for legal reasons that I must.
I am TRULY sick and tired of putting my life on hold for people and things that are consumed in other battles and agendas.
Ooooohhhh I wanna say soooooo many curse words right now but I know my mom will be very upset if I do... Lol...
I have held off on film and television opportunities and am planning on postponing other aspects of my life??!?!????
Uh-uh.
I think not.
I cannot give people who are not living my life the power to govern it.
I am exasperated and sooooooo saddened by the non-progress I have been experiencing.
I wish I could speak more candidly, but I would hate to mess up any future relationships or opportunities.
I have been hopeful and optimistic for so long, but my flame of hope is definetly extinguishing.
Sometimes I just like to vent on my blog.
It really helps to hear your positive feedback!
Thankfully I'm headed to the west coast on wednesday to get my grind-cap on and work extra hard to metaphorically punch people in the nose!! Lol...
Not quite sure what that means yet.
But what I do know is that while music seems to be temporarily on hold, best believe I will not be twiddling my thumbs :) gahhhhhhh it gets super frustrating sometimes especially when I see others excelling and getting to do what I also love.
But then I remind myself that I'm only 18 and that I'm lucky to be so young!
I still have my life ahead of me.
Thanks for listening,
Joanna
As much as I want to eat junk food and watch tv and cry, I can't!!!
I must not let seemingly impossible situations dictate my happiness or my life plan.
I hate to speak so vaguely, but I fear for legal reasons that I must.
I am TRULY sick and tired of putting my life on hold for people and things that are consumed in other battles and agendas.
Ooooohhhh I wanna say soooooo many curse words right now but I know my mom will be very upset if I do... Lol...
I have held off on film and television opportunities and am planning on postponing other aspects of my life??!?!????
Uh-uh.
I think not.
I cannot give people who are not living my life the power to govern it.
I am exasperated and sooooooo saddened by the non-progress I have been experiencing.
I wish I could speak more candidly, but I would hate to mess up any future relationships or opportunities.
I have been hopeful and optimistic for so long, but my flame of hope is definetly extinguishing.
Sometimes I just like to vent on my blog.
It really helps to hear your positive feedback!
Thankfully I'm headed to the west coast on wednesday to get my grind-cap on and work extra hard to metaphorically punch people in the nose!! Lol...
Not quite sure what that means yet.
But what I do know is that while music seems to be temporarily on hold, best believe I will not be twiddling my thumbs :) gahhhhhhh it gets super frustrating sometimes especially when I see others excelling and getting to do what I also love.
But then I remind myself that I'm only 18 and that I'm lucky to be so young!
I still have my life ahead of me.
Thanks for listening,
Joanna
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